Ok, so I haven't posted in a long time. I worried about that. I am not sure I am cut out for blogging...but I am trying. I am also not sure I am cut out for weight loss...but I am trying.
I haven't posted in a long time because I kept putting off the "starting again" post. I didn't put off starting again. I put off talking about it. It lasted a day or two...but then off again. I don't like the starting all over again feeling....and I especially don't like talking about it.
I am starting again. And again. And again. I have no great news...well starting again is better than giving up completely so maybe that is good news. Anyway, I don't have the 10 lbs down or 20lbs down. I do have the 20 lbs up...but that isn't the best thing to blog about.
I am dealing with the migraines...figured out that they are not migraines...but it is just easier to call them that. Otherwise I have to do the whole...my head is seriously going to jump right off my head and go rolling on the floor--or I would like it to so that the rest of me can get some relief. I seem to have a "treatment routine", but I would prefer they be gone.
Of course I would prefer a lot of things.
Wow I sound down. I am not really, just fed up with starting. But again, whatever. I am here. So do it. Like the girl on Private Practice....can't believe I am here in this place again...but here I am.
I worry about the comments. I don't really need anyone to say anything. I just need to get moving. Which by the way, I did this morning at the Y. An hour with the personal trainer and my two new workout buddies.
I am glad to be working out. I am horrified how much ground I have lost since boot camp. Whatever. I need to focus on now. That is what I have.
So now...today...I worked out. I have eaten reasonably. I am working on emotional stuff--baggage, past, etc. etc. I am drinking water. I am learning what it means to be kind to yourself. And I blogged.
yeah me. Let's do it again tomorrow.
It's me...still here...still working it out...